three

Damn it, how do you know?

He also wants to say that as long as it is something you like, no matter what method I use, I will obtain it and give it to you

In the days immediately following Lin Yizhou's departure, I lived each day in this manner

She also mentioned that Yunnan has three extreme colors: one is sky blue, another is the emerald green of trees, and the last is the overwhelming red of flowers

Song Yuan pointed to the door and said, "Shan Shan, sold another bag, it was sold on Taobao for less than half the price she bought it for. Later, she felt she sold it too cheaply, but there was nothing she could do, so she took it out on me"

Next to the reeds, I dug a hole and then placed the small box inside it

When you are outside, no matter who you find displeasing, it is best to keep a low profile; if no one is looking out for you, you may not even realize how you met your end

He turned around and walked away briskly, without looking back.

I must admit that during the time I neglected her, my dear friend Kang Jie endured the relentless storms of life with resilience and fortitude, viewing them as trials necessary for growing up, much like the game we loved to play in our childhood—Super Mario

After packing all my belongings and assuring my mother that I would not eat food offered by strangers, smoke cigarettes given by strangers, or lend my phone or even a penny to strangers, I finally earned the qualification to travel

You will understand when the time comes

Their biggest argument erupted on the weekend before I went out, and by the time I felt their rented apartment, the two had already finished arguing. Li Shanshan was sitting on the small sofa with a cushion in her arms, her face deeply buried in the cushion, ignoring anyone who tried to pull her.

On the other hand, she also has to take care of her difficult mother. Sometimes, on weekends, it is almost dawn, and she simply cannot be bothered to sleep. She spends a few hours online and then directly goes to the market to buy bones to make soup, muttering fiercely as she cooks: "I must have committed too many sins in my past life!"

He just quietly looked at me, and a second felt as long as a century

He suddenly said: "She sold another bag."

I can never figure out whether, in the final moment of his life, even for a second, he thought of me

She is a true illegitimate daughter; I am not referring to those pretentious and affected girls who merely wet a pair of chopsticks at meals and claim to be full, or those who take half a day to boss around the waiter when buying a bottle of perfume. While everyone else is laughing uproariously, she sits upright and composed. Tang Xi is certainly not that kind of girl

Too late, this is truly a cruel word

Many words, such as gratitude, apologies, and declarations of love, are lost forever before they can be expressed.

I just want to be with him, I just want love

After many days, when I finally broke my previous vow and opened this box, seeing the key that still shone brightly, suddenly all the nerves in my body related to pain awakened at once. No matter how resilient I am, I know that with this blow, I truly cannot endure it any longer

It will be a long, long time before I see that girl, Tang Xi

In fact, given Tang Xi's character and upbringing, she should not have asked such an awkward question when they were still not well acquainted. Perhaps she herself was unaware that she treated this person named Xu Zhijun differently from the boys who usually fawned over her and indulged her in everything.

Kang Jie silently watched me finish this task from a distance, and finally mustered the courage to come over and say to me: "Luo Xun, I have something to tell you"

I know what she is waiting for, but at this moment, I do not want to blame her for being overly concerned. I understand that everything she does is for my benefit. There are many things I do not comprehend; how can two people without blood ties have such deep feelings for each other? How can one be so good to the other?

Then he turned around and pretended to be sleepy. I reached out and hugged him from behind. We both knew, of course, that he was talking about himself

While Kang Jie was entangled with Chen Chen, Tang Xi was at Xu Zhijun's home keeping his mother company while watching television, and Xu Zhijun was alone in his room lost in thought

As she looked along Xu Zhijun's bookshelf, Tang Xi couldn't help but let out a chuckle: "This entire shelf is filled with Doraemon comics, I never expected you to be so childlike."

Kang Jie helped me pull my suitcase all the way to the airport, and while standing in the airport hall, she kept looking around restlessly

Tang Xi, sitting in the passenger seat, kept repeating: "I am really sorry, I didn't mean to trouble you. My dad has been urging me to get my driver's license for a long time, but I have been too lazy to go, and I still haven't taken the test until now"

She just feels that he always seems distracted, as if he is constantly thinking about something

During your menstrual period, avoid running around excessively; no matter how hot the weather is, do not consume excessively cold foods. You must cherish your own body.

You are no longer here, but they did not disappear along with you

Song Yuan explained more than once: "It is not at all like that; others have no intention of seducing me at all, it is all something you have imagined yourself!"

During that time, Kang Jie became a very busy person. On one hand, she still had to dress up flamboyantly for work every night. Every time I saw her heavily made-up Gothic look, I couldn't help but advise her to change jobs, as girls who stay up late age quickly.

The scar has faded somewhat after undergoing two laser surgeries, but it has only lightened a little, and it is by no means comparable to Li Shanshan's once unparalleled beauty.

In response to her surprise, I smiled and said: "There are too many places I have been with him here, every street holds memories, so I plan to go out for a walk. Don't worry, I will remember to bring you a gift."

In the end, both of us are about to go crazy, the large map of China is almost being poked to pieces by us, how about we close our eyes and randomly point to a place

I called Kang Jie, and it was noisy on her end; I couldn't tell what was happening. We both nearly shouted through the call: "Are you free? Even if you're not, you have to make time!"

She gazed at the boy in front of her, who was not very fond of smiling, and thought to herself, I must find out what it is that captures your entire attention and leaves you in a daze

Tang Xi's clothing style leans towards Japanese aesthetics, featuring a white lace dress paired with a light blue denim jacket. Her hair is styled in a bun at the back of her head, and she never wears overly dramatic makeup. Regardless of the occasion, she always presents a fresh and clean appearance.

After hanging up the phone, I opened the rightmost drawer of the desk. That drawer was cluttered with many useless items, and at the very back, there was a small wooden box.

She lowered her head timidly and murmured in a voice that was almost a whisper: "Well... I... told... Xu Zhijun."

I have never felt the slightest jealousy towards her beauty; on the contrary, I believe that someone who is so good-looking should go out more often to let everyone see. It is precisely because I have never been that beautiful that I cannot comprehend what it feels like to fall from the clouds to the depths.

I met Yao Kangjie by the reeds by the river. I arrived first, and by the time she rushed over, panting, I had already finished crying. However, upon seeing my eyes, she revealed a look of disdain: "Crying again?"

The box contains the key to Lin Yizhou's apartment

Finally, Song Yuan lit a cigarette and walked out onto the balcony. In the dim light, his emaciated silhouette reminded me of the time when Li Shanshan was hospitalized, and the figure that Lin Yizhou left behind for me. I remember he told me at that time that he was with someone else, yet his expression was far from joyful; the corners of his mouth were turned down, giving him a very sorrowful appearance, and then he turned and left.

Lin Yizhou, how wonderful it would be if I could see you once more. I truly want to tell you that in those fleeting and precious days we shared, whenever I recall your smile, or the faint scar on your forehead, my heart swells with a warm pain, an unprecedented feeling that flows through my body with the pulse of my blood

Have you ever had such an experience, a long and endless night, where you keep your eyes open staring into the infinite darkness, reaching out your hand, only to find a void of blackness, until eventually you can no longer see your hand

I find myself unable to live and die together with you

As I buried this small box, my tears surged forth uncontrollably; this silent yet intense weeping felt as if it were about to split me into several pieces. No matter how much I tried to restrain myself, I could not hold back the tears.

However, after that moment, Cheng Luoxun's appearance gradually faded away, and Tang Xi's face vividly presented itself before his eyes

Before I could respond, Li Shanshan became angry again: "What the hell do you mean? Are you trying to break up with me?"

I remember the night we slept together, when it was pouring rain outside. He said that some people have no parents, no friends, no home, no career, and no one who needs them. Life feels like an empty zero. One can spend money to buy a woman for the night, or engage in lovemaking with many chance encounters, yet he remains a solitary individual.

In order to support the two of them, Song Yuan, who used to spend his days idly indulging in food and entertainment, has also started working. Originally, Luo Suran wanted to provide them with some assistance, but as Qian Qian began to speak and grow, her financial pressure suddenly increased. Even if she wanted to help them, she found herself unable to do so.

Since you can hear my curses, why can't you hear my requests

That is a face I can recall even with my eyes closed. I remember his rare smile and the resolute expression on his face when he was disheartened. I remember that he always spoke to me gently, and he would never utter a harsh word unless I pushed him to the limit.

Later, I went to see Sister Suran after her return to work. She has already lost some weight compared to when she just gave birth. Although she has not yet regained her previous graceful figure, it seems that it is just around the corner.

Sitting on the bumpy bus, gazing at the flickering lights outside, I sadly thought that many times we believe we have grown up, for it is only in growing up that we encounter so many different kinds of troubles

What is it, sister? Are you going to get involved in a pyramid scheme?

On the day I left Changsha, only Kang Jie came to see me off. My mother had originally insisted on accompanying us, and I was almost at my breaking point: "I beg you, it's not like I'm a primary school student signing up, what is there to send me off for, it's not like I'm not coming back!"

I was instantly filled with confusion. Have I become foolish, or has she become smarter? Why is it that I can no longer win in our verbal sparring?

I lay in the reeds, which were taller than me, wrapped in my thin spring attire. For a brief moment, I felt an overwhelming urge to sit down and cry, fiercely and deeply.

My mother shot me a fierce glare, but in the end, it was Kang Jie who managed to win my mother over with her silver tongue

She held a plate of strawberries, and when she smiled, there was a small dimple on her left cheek: "Would you like to eat some strawberries? They are very sweet"

She has already sold one bag, and this is the second one. I don't know why it might sell at a loss. It's also my fault for not being patient. If she is unhappy, I should just give in a little. But at that moment, I couldn't hold back and ended up arguing. Sigh...

After a long time, the situation remained at a standstill. I had no choice but to lean close to Li Shanshan's ear and whisper, "Shanshan, I will be leaving in a couple of days, please take care of yourselves."

Xu Zhijun smiled and said, "There is no need to be so polite, it is just a small effort on my part. Uncle Tang asked me to accompany you because he was worried about you."

There is no need to mention this; I have known you for quite some time. Your eyes tend to swell whenever you cry. You should drink more water!

After passing through security, I turned back to look at Kang Jie. She appeared so small among the crowd. She waved at me, and I could see her lips forming the words "take care of yourself." I don't know why, but at that moment, my nose suddenly felt very sour.

Alright! I must have owed you ancestors from my previous life!

He smiled and said, "It was a favorite of an old friend, so I bought it to collect."

Tang Xi tilted her head and stared at him. After a while, she also smiled and said, "He must be a very important friend, right?"

However, it was of no use; once Li Shanshan had made up her mind about something, no one could change it. She called me late at night, crying as she spoke: "Luoxun, I really don't know what to do. Is this retribution, do you think? Is there really such a thing as retribution?"

Hiding in the stairwell of the staff passage, Kang Jie, with a heavily made-up face, coldly watched the person in front of her who was beaming with joy. Is this how his life will be? The slot machine has become the most important thing in his life, and gambling has become his only source of pleasure. When he has money, he indulges in a life of excess. Damn, isn't this the life of a rich second generation? But are you even a rich second generation?

From beginning to end, I did not utter a single word. The people behind me were urging me on, and I stumbled forward, unsure of where to direct my gaze.

During this period, the arguments between Li Shanshan and Song Yuan became increasingly frequent. The once formidable female warrior clad in armor seemed to have become defenseless overnight, with any slight disturbance triggering her anxiety. In proportion to this anxiety was her increasingly sensitive pride; even a single poorly chosen word from Song Yuan could provoke her to a furious outburst

I remember seeing you wear a piece of jade before, why aren't you wearing it now? After much effort, Tang Xi finally found a topic to discuss, yet little did she know that this was the very thing Xu Zhijun was most reluctant to bring up

Just by listening to her description, I already feel enchanted, to the extent that I didn't even notice a familiar Lexus flashing by on the roadside

Later, she took the opportunity to say that the young girl in our company likes me. It's true that the girl has a bit of a crush on me... but she shouldn't be so insecure. I have had my fair share of romantic pursuits in the past, and I shouldn't be so easily swayed by such a small temptation.

Although this was merely a joke from Chen Chen, this little rascal, in that moment, Kang Jie still felt a warm stir in her heart

No need, not much moisture has been lost

Regarding this little sprite, Li Shanshan had already noticed something amiss. On Valentine's Day, Song Yuan's phone inexplicably received a text message, written in a tone of feigned sulkiness: Wishing you an unhappy Valentine's Day, not happy at all!

Suddenly, sorrow appeared on the faces of the three of us

After witnessing that scene of him in bed with someone else, this set of keys, along with my insulted pride, was "snapped" shut in this small box. I threw the box into this drawer that I rarely use, making a decision to never look at it again for the rest of my life

However, Li Shanshan believes that he has not matured, and he is not embodying the spirit of "a true gentleman can bend and stretch" to confront the unspoken rules of the workplace, but rather...! ... but rather because there is a shameless little vixen in that company

That won't do; if I don't treat you well, no one else will treat you well either

I can no longer remember the last time I saw you; I only know that time has been infinitely prolonged, and I will never see you again

It was clearly a perfunctory response. Tang Xi, being such a clever person, would not be unaware that she had asked the wrong question, and thus she awkwardly smiled, after which the two of them fell silent.

To be honest, I feel very distressed

He walked over and placed a small paper bag in my hand, softly saying: "It contains all the essential medicines, take care of yourself.

After saying this, the two of them were at a loss for words. For a moment, Xu Zhijun felt a bit dazed. If he were with Cheng Luoxun, it certainly wouldn't be this dull

Yet I always remember what he said: "Life is not right, and death cannot rise."

She always jokes, saying that she will turn over a new leaf once she saves enough money for her redemption

What the hell do you mean! Are you trying to break up?

Beyond the space you inhabit, in parallel timelines, the ones you have loved and those who have loved you are each engaged in their own pursuits, of which you can have no knowledge. Only fate watches with a smile at the mortal world: "What kind of romantic or cruel stories will these ordinary people enact this time?"

Each of them is like this, when leaving, they refuse to look back at me even once. I suddenly want to flip through the calendar to see how many days and years have passed since our first encounter

Her cultivation is reflected in the details that others seldom notice, such as wiping away the lipstick marks left on the rim of a cup when drinking water, politely accepting promotional flyers handed out on the street, and disposing of them only when she reaches a trash can. No matter how vulgar the comments about the campus beauty are in her presence, she always maintains a composed and dignified smile. She does not keep people at arm's length, yet she makes others feel as if they are bathed in a spring breeze

When I was leaving, Song Yuan picked up his coat from the sofa and said he would see me off. In the dark corridor, his breathing sounded particularly heavy

Hmm? I looked at her with suspicion. Why so serious? Are you looking to borrow money from me? I have no money!

There is nothing that cannot be overcome, only places that cannot be returned to. I have never felt the meaning of this phrase as clearly as I do now

The road to the airport is quite desolate, and on the large billboard, the advertisement for an unknown product boldly states: Love is a ghost

However, I really do not know how to comfort him, or what else to say to make this child a bit happier. I feel that I am becoming increasingly tongue-tied.

At this moment, he stands before me, just as he did when we first formally met, looking at each other with such solemnity, yet the myriad words in our hearts are stuck in our throats

While chatting in a café, Sister Suran mentioned that among the places she has visited, her favorite is Yunnan, where the sky is remarkably blue, as if the ocean has been hung above her head.

Song Yuan, do not blame her, she only has you now

Lin Yizhou, when I realized these things, I found that Cheng Luoxun was not so reclusive, so timid, so cowardly.

In fact, the things that trouble us are precisely indicative of the fact that we have not yet truly grown up

She is the Super Mario who eats mushrooms and collects coins, capable of anything under the heavens and on the earth, and when this round is OVER, she will start again

In comparison to her, I truly feel utterly inadequate

Upon hearing my words, she suddenly lifted her head, disregarding the scar on her face, and looked at me in astonishment, asking in disbelief: "Where are you going?"

I finally saw him, as I was slowly moving along the security check line after changing my boarding pass, I heard a long-awaited voice calling my name

We, this group of people, have already gone our separate ways, scattered in various corners of the city, and one person has even left us forever, never to return. The only consolation is that the two of them are still together. I never imagined that after enduring so many hardships to be together, these two would actually utter those two words.

After making this decision, I felt as if I had shed a heavy burden, and even my body became lighter

However, before going out, there is one thing I must do

I was momentarily taken aback: "What?"

If there is anything in this world that could make me so sad that I would cry without regard for my image in a crowd, it would be that I will never know what Lin Yizhou wanted to tell me during that phone call that Xu Zhijun ended that night

The entire room was enveloped in an extremely oppressive atmosphere, and for a moment, I found it difficult to say anything.

In a moment of daze, I feel that I have already shed all the tears of this lifetime

This is not the end; she still has to help me plan my trip whenever she has a little free time. Where should we go? I have heard that there are auroras in Mohe during the summer, which sounds wonderful. However, the gentle and affectionate charm of the water towns in Jiangnan is also appealing. Beijing is the cultural center of China, a paradise for idealists; should we not go there? Or perhaps we should head to the seaside, letting the tides wash away all that has passed?

I softly said to Kang Jie: "You go up and wait for me, I want to be alone for a while"

Xu Zhijun was momentarily taken aback, and out of politeness, he turned to the side and invited her into his bedroom

A hint of an awkward smile appeared on his face: "That... ah, hehe, I don't want to wear it anymore"

Another scene also surfaced in my mind, when I was leaving Xu Zhijun's apartment with a large bag and a small bag on my back. He told me, "After you leave today, we will no longer have any possibility," and then he turned around, facing away from me.

I hope to dig such a pit in my life, to put everything about Lin Yizhou into it, and then not to think about it or touch it, but I know it will always be there.

The wind was strong that day, and I truly experienced what is meant by the chill of early spring. Looking through the glass window, I saw a scene of red flowers and green willows, but in reality, it was nothing like that.

Since receiving that text message from Kang Jie, he has been in a daze for several days. He despises his indecisive nature, wondering whether he should take some action. If he does, will it backfire? ... It was precisely because he took it upon himself to hang up that call that things turned out this way

I did not expect fate to take a sudden turn, nor did I anticipate that my careless curse of "you will eventually die in this car" would truly come to pass. There have been many moments when I hated everyone, including him and myself, and even vented my anger on so-called deities

If I do not leave soon, I fear I will be suffocated by these memories that are as thin and strong as steel wires

Song Yuanzhe sat in front of the computer, playing games while cursing and throwing the mouse around, with the ashtray beside him piled high with cigarette butts

It is a rather pretentious thing for me to ask Kang Jie to accompany me.

I held my phone in silence, knowing that she was always in a state of uncertainty. However, I did not expect her to be psychologically fragile to such an extent

Scientists say that if a piece of paper is folded more than 51 times, its thickness could exceed the distance from the Earth to the Sun

But I will never know what else he wanted to say. I feel that I will just drift through the years like this, until one day I met you. I felt that you were as lonely as I was, and suddenly I felt that I had found what I was meant to do. Yet, I still do not know if this is love

I recalled on the way to the airport, I said to Kang Jie: "During this period, I want to listen to the radio broadcast every night just like before. Once, a middle-aged man called to ask Sister Su Ran a rather amusing question: what should he do about impotence? His tone was filled with inferiority and despair"

Meanwhile, Chen Chen, who had finally recouped his losses, eagerly approached Kang Jie and excitedly said to her: "I knew I would win, thank you for helping me last time, Kang Jie, you are truly loyal, here, this is for you, take it!"

Amidst the roar of the airplane, I depart from this city that has buried our youth, and what the future holds is entirely unpredictable

"I never asked you to please me. I am difficult to deal with, so I kindly ask you not to come looking for me again." Kang Jie had no pleasant tone.

When Li Shanshan saw this text message, she did not make a fuss about it. Song Yuan casually brushed it off, saying it was just an ordinary colleague from the company who liked to joke around. He never expected that starting from that day, Li Shanshan would almost daily pull up his text message records to review them. More than a month later, the war finally broke out

No matter how I look at it, I feel that she is a perfect match for Xu Zhijun

At this time, they were not yet together; Xu Zhijun was merely tasked with accompanying her to the airport to pick up her cousin

After I stabilized my emotions, I really wanted to say something like "thank you" or "don't worry" as a polite gesture, but he did not give me that opportunity

He still looks so proud

This despicable scoundrel who sells friends for personal gain

I turned around, and in a sea of dark, dense crowd, I saw his face

I feel that I truly understand the panic that Li Shanshan has never expressed. Love has made her increasingly timid. What was once a worthless life has now become two worthless lives. The once reckless and willful her has finally experienced the taste of being unfree

Xu Zhijun glanced over, and a row of brand new complete sets of Doraemon was neatly arranged on the second shelf of the bookcase. For a brief moment, he felt that the girl standing in front of him was Cheng Luoxun, and he wanted to tell her: all of these are bought for you, because you said you liked them

I just want to be with him, I just want love

It was always Song Yuan who spoke, and I just listened quietly. We walked to the bus stop like this, and just as the bus arrived, I took out a coin and waved it at him. However, just before getting on the bus, I remembered something.

Breakup, these two words, once spoken from her lips, left us all stunned, including herself

After a pause, I continued, "At that moment, I also wanted to call Sister Suran to ask, you mentioned that there are specialized hospital doctors who can help treat impotence, but what about the incapacity to love?"

Just as he was on the verge of breaking down in his turmoil, someone knocked on his bedroom door

It is not that... it is to drink more water and hold it in, then take a look at your current ghostly appearance after you relieve yourself

I have always been unaware of what their expressions looked like after they turned away

Time gradually stripped away the warmth of our last embrace, your once familiar breath slowly dissipating into the air of this city; this is all that has vanished.

After experiencing N job changes, Song Yuan finally settled down a bit at a securities company after slamming the table and declaring, "I quit" within a week.

After he received the money, Kang Jie coldly said "goodbye." Chen Chen then pulled her back and said, "Why do you always have this expression when you see me? You are not happy when I borrow money from you, and you are still not happy when I pay you back. Why are you so difficult to please?"

Li Shanshan's expression still appeared somewhat dazed. At this moment, Song Yuan also set aside his computer and sat down, his brows tightly furrowed: "You went out, what should I do if she goes crazy in the future?"

I have never seen Xu Zhijun, who is usually so reticent, being so verbose; suddenly, my nose felt a twinge, and holding that packet of medicine made me feel as if my tears were about to flow out.

Xu Zhijun felt as if there were a piece of paper repeatedly being folded between him and Cheng Luoxun, gradually pushing the two individuals, who were originally very close, to the opposite bank of a river that could no longer be crossed.